I ran.

I ran to reach the point of acceptance.

My thoughts were grabbing my neck from inside, choking me with its questions of acceptance.

I ran! I ran from the strength of my thoughts.

And finally I reached where I wanted to end.

“The  start”.

The start is where we accept ourselves. Maybe the years that is adding on age, makes our reality adulterated, making our existence an awkward situation. And maybe that awkwardness makes us run the race of nowhere.

It is all about what we think, and there is always a start.

Let us start every day and find a new start at the end of the day..

Because life ends there, where life starts!


If you could see

We all our doing something. Something that urges us to do something else and that makes us do something and gradually it depends upon our first something that we end up with the right thing or the wrong thing. So what are we actually doing?

There is no one in this world who can actually tell where our something takes us.

We have to move, walk forward, pave our own ways and live our life.

In between all this if immaterial things start hampering your vision. Your ambitious brain starts tangling itself in its own veins. Your conscience start ignoring your soul. All you can see is a million paradoxes. What will you do?

Immaterial things are material in a long term perspective as it opens our third eye showing us a bigger and a wider range of materialistic fancies that might bring a traffic jam in the flow of our life.

It is better to experience such mess once in our life. When I was through it… I thought my “something” is the wrong doer. But let me tell you.. your “something ” is the best possible thing that can happen to you. As it is you who decide what might come next in your life. If the next scene of your life is bad, you were the one who decided it, you can correct it a million times and if it is good, then you know how to make it better and the best!

Love yourself and your decisions and surely your “right” something or your “wrong” something will lead you to a  new start where you will always get a second chance!

PS: If  you could see!

if emotions were a question!

I think about it, my eyes deny,

I want to know about it, my soul doesn’t even try!

If emotions were a question,

I would have asked WHY?

Emotions bring in soul to our bodies,

ohh yes!! that’s the reason we think, we smile, we frown, we cry!

but now the life has turned emotions to questions

for every feelings we ask why??

now the world has turned emotion less

all we have is people fakery dressed

it is because of the questions asked

why is our emotions being masked!

I ask myself

but I am biased

because I am not myself.

I  am left behind

behind the questions I ask about my emotions

my smile is a lie, my tears a lie

all I can express is a vague try

to know myself

I have been digging around

Questions is all what I found.

I wish I could pause this world,

no more emotions,

no more  questions.

All  I want is to put forward my unbiased expression,

to tell you that emotions are not meant to be questioned!

Stepping out of Oneself

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Why do we have a boundary?

A boundary that limits us to ourselves.

Why can’t we come out of the “ME” world?

Why can’t we see and believe the things which are visible to us ?

Why are we running, fighting, killing our own people just to justify and prove the invisible things whose existence is not even known to us?

These questions are getting on my nerves. My nerves are actually wrapping up my body, taking away my breath and my lovely sleep.

Like WHYYYY?????

Okayyyy!! ( The repetition of letters  is to basically show the intensity of my frustration. I literally have no idea about the content coming up. All I know is a million questions for which I need answers.)

When I relate things like that of world wars, ISIS, Paris attack and all such things, a white flash light covers up my head instantly and shows me a picture of OUR mother Earth.

It is so strange. We have so many things beyond us, so much of mysteries, so much of science, so much history. But we humans are stuck in  between ourselves, digging out our own identity in want of things which has no meaning and existence.

Everything is so damn big, the Earth, the universe, like we are nothing except an organized piece of flesh in front of it, still we carry so much of weight in our temporary mortal bodies called EGO, PRIDE and GREED.


We fight for it, we take lives for it, we challenge nature for it and end up with nothing.

Our face, our beauty, our ego is immaterial in the reality.

Why are we materializing these things??

Why can’t we just smile, live with brotherhood and humanity?

I am still wrapped up in my nerves, I am still confused, I am still clueless about the answers.

I started writing with questions and I’ll end up asking a question.

Maybe my 18 year old brain is way too inquisitive or maybe I am just too slow…








 People say ambitions, goals… shape up your life.

“If you pre-plan things your future will be smooth and trouble free.”

But the boss in me says- GO WITH THE FLOW. As the flow  will end up at a better place than what you have thought off.

Our thinking, our perceptions, our aims, our ambitions limit all the best possibilities that could have happened. Why do we need to choose when life makes better choices for us?

Okaayeee… let me tell you a secret.



No I  am not batman ( :P)

BUT there lives a batman and a badman within us. The Badman very smartly has blown up a bubble around us.

A bubble in which we are living,

A bubble that doesn’t let us see anything beyond it,

A bubble whose existence is based on  premature optimizations of our over thoughtful brain.

To explore ourselves, to know our potentials, what we need to do is- BURST  that  bubble, clear the blockage it created, clean the messy rooms in our little head and look outside the windows of our eyes.

When you see through these windows, you’ll feel a cool refreshing breeze entering   through it. This breeze will give you a 7-D view towards life. ” A Happy Life”.

A life better than your dreams.

Basically that stagnant air, blocked in that bubble hampered our vision and paths. The windows of our eyes, though opened were choked by the mist of that polluted and stagnant air.

When we are out of that bubble, all we see around is open ways. Everything is a possibility. There may be some uncertainities but every uncertainity will surely open up an opportunity.


if you are out of it,

Then what???

Just go with the flow…

P.S. Thank You!



Those lovely memories,

Those lively reminiscences,

How can I rub them off

How can I forget them,

How can I make my heart understand,

that these memories are out of my hand…

There’s so much to say,

So much to share,

But all my words are locked inside me

buried deep inside me,

I want it all out of me,

but my silence won’t allow them,

The story will remain endless

because of this increasing difference.

The silence around is pinching me,

troubling me,

But out of it,I have to come,

I have to stand this bad time,

and step out of it with those lovely, lively memories washed away

and new blooming energy directing me towards a

beginning of a NEW LIFE…

Sometimes memories are the reason why one can’t move ON.



The usual questions, the usual answers...

If I am a person, I am surely The fusion of a sperm and an ovum..and if I am it, the others around are too.. silly right!!

Okay.. Q1)I have a father, my father too has a father, his father too had a father and his father did have a father... I mean can anyone please tell me who was the first father??..
What all is going on here is really a mess,
and my little head is a storage of mess.

Q2) What will happen if we all die?
Are we going to reach heaven or hell?do they have fairies or demons?... 

Q3) Why did The creator of the Universe make me a human? Is it because I was a sinner in my previous life or is it because I did something very great?

There are a million more questions that I face day and night, this was just the main one...

If I say there was a time I actually wanted to die, just to see what will happen after death... my little head was unable to take the load of a million questions that was surrounding it... And above all Robin Sharma's book "Who Will Cry When You Die?" Just the Title had a deep impact on me. My "inquisitive soul" wanted to know so much, that it almost convinced me to kill myself.
According to me, it wasn't a suicide.. it was just a way of answering myself...
Yes I am alive, as I am sharing this stupid thought of mine.We all have 2 lawyers and 1 judge in us. I call them The Mayavi(My angel), The Lutapi(my demon) and the ultimate me "The Shubhi". My judgement was to kill myself, as I found Lutapi more convincing.The argument that I faced that day is given below:-

"Death is so fascinating!You can know who you are?Kill yourself, you will find answers to all your questions in just a moment." said Lutapi.

"No!! You have no right to take your life.There are many more ways you can find out answers to all your queries."  argued Mayavi.

"If there are many other ways Mayavi...Pl. tell us". Lutapi said with an evil grin.


My inner voice shouted "Death is the only solution" DEATH DEATH DEATH.....
I roamed around like a mad in my house to find a way to kill myself(Though the decision to die was an easy one but TO DIE was something unreasonable).
I was determined to take the shit out of me...and suddenly a beautiful dupatta caught my sight. I planned to make a noose out of it.
 Everything was done. Nobody was there around me, I was alone with my lawyers in me. I thought of wearing a beautiful dress before leaving this World. I was all set to hang myself. The beautiful colorful dupatta was an appointed Yamraj of I Shubhi Sunil stood up on a chair all set to hang myself...and as expected Suddenly my Angel Mayavi shouted," Stop!!!!"
"I have a perfect justification". Mayavi said.
I was actually waiting for something that could change my mind.
Mayavi continued “Everybody knows the secrets of life after death but there are only few people who know all the secrets of life being alive. Don’t be the same... Explore this beautiful world!! Spread Love, Happiness, meet different humans, and talk to them...Live each moment. Death is a truth, but Life is a reality. Truth will come to you one day. Wait for that day! In between this amazing life and the fascinating death you will get answers to all your questions. “Have patience! That’s all.
After listening to this my thoughts cleared up. I wanted to live...
Life after death is a mystery but Life is a reality...Knowing the life after death is not important but knowing life being alive is very important.